Setbacks

Full confession - the picture has nothing to do with the subject of this post. This is a field of native Louisiana flowers at City Park I took during my last long walk of eight miles.

There was supposed to be an eight mile walk either yesterday or today.

But there won't be, because on Thursday I started having back spasms that have me taking steroids and muscle relaxers.

Sometimes, things just stink.

I was feeling so good earlier this week. Getting my walks in, writing my blog posts, finally working on my next book again.

And then, out of nowhere, my body derails me. I know this is temporary. I know I have to just rest for a few days, and then start slowly building back. But I am tired y'all.

I'm tired of things being so hard. I am tired of trying and trying and trying.

But there really isn't any choice. And this really isn't that big of a deal.

Obviously, my emotional resilience is still not where I need it to be.

So, I will read, and rest, and do gentle back stretches, and hope that by Monday I will be able to take a gentle walk.

It is not the end of the world. I will go back to training for that October half-marathon soon.

And pray for no more setbacks. And know that there will be more setbacks. Because that is how life works.

I will also work on building my emotional resilience so that the next setback doesn't hit quite so hard.

Always forward, my friends. One day at a time, one step at a time. Still chasing a new normal. Someday I'll find it.